Milo always greats the announcement of an impending family trip the same way: “NO.  I’m NOT going.” 

I’ve learned that it’s no use to argue the point head on.  He’s angling for an argument and arguing plays directly into his hand.  “Why do we have to go away?” “Why can’t we just stay home?” “I hate going on trip with you.”  No logic applies at this juncture.  It’s useless to remind him of past family trips (camping, rafting, tramping, all of which he enjoyed) or recall the many weekends we have spend at home facilitating play dates with William and trips to the skatepark.  Nothing snaps him out of his funk.  The switch is not just turned off, the power is turned off at the breaker.    

I battle with him to get his own clothes packed, never mind helping with any of the family gear or food.  He hinders progress as much as he can, until I heartily look forward to the day when I can leave his misery behind.  Jeremiah and Naomi sit with the car running in the driveway while I adopt my stern no-nonsense mother persona and admonish the lump hiding under the covers that he can come with his shoes on or go without shoes for the weekend, but he IS getting in the car NOW.  And I take away the e-reader.  By the time I buckle myself in, I’m exhausted and frazzled and the whole idea of having a holiday with the family seems ludicrous. 

Then the whinging during the car trip begins…..the length of the journey…. it will be no fun…. he is so hard done by, having to spend time with his horrible family.  I wish I was exaggerating, but I’m not. 

Our first ski trip of the season started just like any other one, and as usual, I was fed up with the whole concept of family enjoyment.  But when we finally arrived at the Amuri ski field out back of Hanmer, Milo quickly put on his gear and went out to the slope.  He skied happily all day, tenaciously mastering the “nutracker” lift, dropped into bed, and repeated the routine for the next two days solid.  Happy as a clam. However, we had barely launched on our return journey to Christchurch when the moaning about future trips started. 

But THIS past weekend, hopefully I don’t speak too soon, but we might have experienced a breakthrough. 

A couple months ago Jeremiah had booked two nights in a casual accommodation near Arthur’s pass called Forest Lodge, in the hope that there would be skiable snow during the school holidays.  His optimism paid off, and the blast of wintery rain and wind that we experienced in Christchurch earlier in the week translated to a good base dump of snow at the ski hills, just in time for our holiday.  Weds afternoon I was pulling together food and handing the clothes packing list to the kids, but I wasn’t getting cheerful cooperation, to say the least.  However, by Thursday morning, Milo had snapped into gear, and was in the car, dressed for the ski hill, before our planned departure time. 

The ski fields in NZ are small, and the parking areas are smaller, but we were in time to get a prime spot at Porters.

Our accommodation at Forest Lodge was friendly and comfortable, and the next day we headed up to nearby Mt Cheeseman, a club ski field. 

There was a gentle rope tow at the learners area, and two “T-bar” lifts to higher up.  This ski field had less groomed areas than the commercial one at Porters, and the snow conditions off the groomed paths were difficult due to a crust that had formed on last week’s new snow.  Also, the clouds were rolling in and we found that with white all around us and white beneath our feet, we really couldn’t see where we were going at all.  Time for a lunch break. 

During lunch big fat snowflakes began to fall, and the snow continued even while the cloud lifted, coating all the surfaces with a fresh soft powder.  What a treat!  It was the first time the kids remember experiencing snow actually falling on them from the sky, and they went out with their mouths open and tongues extended.  Milo pointed excitedly at his skis which he had left on the ground before lunch, and now were covered with a fresh dusting.  The snow changed again and became perfect six-sided flakes to admire on our coat sleeves. 

The T-bar at Cheeseman has the friendly feature of having several places where it comes close enough to the hill below to grab an empty and hop back on, so we looped our favorite spots again and again.  Some bits easy with smooth u-shaped trails, floaty with the new snow.  Others were more challenging, with snow piled into moguls as more competent skiers had pushed it around on their decent.  Naomi and Stella rode the lift on their own, gaining confidence in their independence.  Jeremiah is by far the best skier in the family, and he could go up higher and catch us up on his way down.  I had a great time skiing with Milo—we’re close to the same level of skiing, which makes for good comradery.  Again, we didn’t pack up until the last T-bar had stopped.  It is a new level of family holiday, when each of us is enjoying the activity at our own level, sometimes independently and sometimes jointly.  If one of us needs a break (or throws a wobbly), the others can just continue.  It must be what it’s like to have older kids.

The last morning Milo was so keen to get going that he came back into the kitchen and said the magic words, “Mom, what I can I do to help?”  Breakfast dishes would be helpful….  “Is there anything else I can do to help?” he asked.  Dishes was a stretch too far, apparently, but he did ferry bags of supplies out to the car and fill the water bottles, all of his own accord. 

The next morning, back in Christchurch, was the most astonishing development of them all.  We all slept in, and when we finally emerged from our rooms we were greeted by a sign on the kitchen door.  “Do not come in!  Work in process.  Go back to bed.” 

We were finished sleeping, but Naomi brought us out cups of tea and coffee in the living room, and behind the closed doors we heard discussions about pan temperature and batter consistency.   

I’m not naïve enough to think we’re entering an entirely new era of parental appreciation and the dark days of entitlement and bad behavior are over, but it certainly was a welcome change.  Perhaps he is recognizing on which side his bread is buttered…. 

A few months ago, Milo declared that he wanted to get pet fish.  I admit I was not thrilled.  It’s not that I hold a particular grudge against fish, but I just have no desire to increase life maintenance tasks at this point.  I have enough to do with feeding and cleaning up after my family of humans as it is. 

However, Milo is persistent, and as I thought about it, he is the one who feeds Jenny the cat, and he does take care of his paper route with admirable independence.  Maybe a fish would be ok, if he understood fully the maintenance he was signing up for. 

I tasked him with fish care research, and he turned to the internet with gusto.  Turns out that the Internet says that keeping gold fish in a bowl is cruel now-a-days, and a fish needs 1 litre of water per centimeter of body length, other fish to school with, and a filter, and a heater, and points of interest in their habitat in which to develop their brains…..whatever happened to the good old days of a cheerful gold fish in a bowl with a few pebbles on the kitchen counter?

Milo’s anti-fish-cruelty campaign dictated that a bowl was unsuitable, and I didn’t want a tank that was going to require an adult’s help to clean, so for some weeks we were at an impasse.

We went to the fish store for inspiration—Visit Number One.  The smallest model fish tank that suited his criteria was too big for my taste on the kitchen counter.  After I rejected the argument that it should live as a centrepiece on the dining room table, Milo offered his bedroom, and compromise was in the air.  28 litres was bigger than my original vision, but it was where we landed. 

Fish stores charge an exorbitant price for a new glass aquarium, but they’re sold by the scores on TradeMe with all the extras, because other people got tired of maintaining their fish.  However, Milo scorned the idea of a used tank…..and since he’s spending his own money, I guess I don’t really care.  On Visit Number Two to the fish store we carted home a new aquarium, but the fish, according to the store attendant, would have to wait.  The water needed to “condition” for a week to be ready, and she sold us the appropriate colourful bottles of stuff to add.  I guess fish these days are too fancy for straight tap water.

Milo dutifully added the potions for a week, then we got Covid, so it was two weeks before we got back to the fish store for Visit Number Three, water sample in hand, ready to choose pets. 

But it was not to be.  The water indicators weren’t right.  Blue, Yellow, and Yellow.  No ammonium, no nitrite, but also no nitrate.  “That’s good, right?” I asked, hopefully.  No, it was not suitable.  We were told to keep up the conditioning regime and come back next week.  I gathered this time that it was a bacterial nitrogen cycle we were supposed to be establishing, presumably just like the soil one, so I ventured a question:  “What if there isn’t enough ammonium to start the cycle, and we’re adding these bacteria into a starving wasteland, so to speak?”  The store attendant looked at me.  The colours on the indicator strips weren’t right.  The water simply wasn’t suitable.  We had to come back next week. 

In frustration I drove down the road to their pet store competitors, muttering under my breath about uneducated salespeople, and we tried again.  Same answer of unsuitability, but this time with a satisfyingly nerdy level of detail, so I believed him.  We might have all the bacteria ready to eat ammonia and nitrate, the toxic waste products fish excrete, but because we weren’t detecting their end conversion product (nitrate) we couldn’t be sure.  He shared pictures of his own aquariums, gave us some bacteria-laden stones from the store aquarium filters and his twitter handle, and sent us on our way for another week.  I was disappointed, but pleased to have encountered such a knowledge base.  Unfortunately that store branch is not particularly convenient to home, so we were cast upon the regular pet store attendants for all subsequent Visits.

Jeremiah took a turn for Visit Number Five, but again, no go.  No ammonium (good), no nitrite (also good), but no nitrate either (no proof of bacterial processing = bad).  They sold us a new potion to sprinkle in the water, advised us to sprinkle in a bit more fish food, and packed us off for another week.  I was losing patience and noted that if that potion was required among the bewildering variety of potions to choose from, they should have said that when we asked on Visit Number Two.   Milo apparently wasn’t fazed, and took the opportunity to stock up on brilliantly colored plastic plants to decorate his fishless tank.

Jeremiah also performed the fish store taxi run for Visit Number Six.  This time he called me while in the store.  “They won’t sell me a fish because the pH isn’t right!” he announced in disgust.  We finally got nitrate, but the pH was 6.4 which, according to the fish store attendant, would “make the fish’s scales fall off.”  It needed to be higher, 7.0.  Jeremiah offered to sprinkle in a bit of bicarbonate from his brewing kit, but that was most definitely unsuitable.  Personally, I was ready to sacrifice a fish to the bacterial hordes and hope that the pH would balance itself in the aftermath of the feeding frenzy, but the store attendant couldn’t with a free conscience let a fish out of the store in our hands.  It would be fish cruelty.  Milo came home with a $4.00 fake shell made out of something white and porous to buffer the water, and a thoroughly put out father.

The following week it was my turn on the fish store attempt, Visit Number Seven.  The attendant tested the water again.  The pH hadn’t budged.  It was still unsuitable.  “But last time we were here we were told to buy that white shell thing to bring the pH up!” I protested.

“Oh, the Oxishell?” she queried, “that doesn’t change the pH at all, you’ll want some clam shells.”  I was ready to wring the poor girl’s neck, and only my responsibility to be a decent parental model in front of my son saved her from a rant about misinformation and ineptitude among salespeople.  I squeezed out a “thank you,” turned on my heel, and quickly exited the store.  My patience isn’t long at the best of times, and it was decidedly frayed at this point.

Jeremiah was the one to perform the last visit, Visit Number Eight, which finally ended in success.  This time they didn’t bring a water sample, figuring if you don’t test it, it can’t be rejected.  They also went to a store branch that wouldn’t recognize us from one of our previous seven visits. 

Jeremiah sent me a snapshot of the delighted young fish-parent riding home with his 6 tiny neon tetras in their plastic bag, which he proudly installed in his new tank, where none of their scales are falling off.

Now Mr. McCave has six fish and we call them all Dave.